I did it and I want my medal!

Well after almost a week of constant conversations and annoying questions I have quiet!!! I felt like I had 3 extra kids that are 5 times more demanding than Philip and he's NOT that demanding. I had Michael to field and Philip to corral. And all the while keeping them to a dull roar because Brent was sleeping. The worse was I didn't get a 'break' because by the time Brent would get up I was in such a mood that I didn't want to talk or be nice. And he would be here long enough that we didn't have time to do all that much. I didn't have a menu for the week so we would just make whatever...by the end of the day I didn't even feel like cooking. I went to bed at midnight or later every night just to lay in bed because Brent wasn't there. If I stayed up he would just keep talking!! I acutally tried to do some of my bible study and put a movie on for background noise and he kept talking like I wasn't doing anything and got annoyed that I wasn't anwsering him and all of the questions. And the topics that he picked I really feel strongly about...ie his failed marriage and his alcholism (sp?). I just don't understand the whole concept of trading one dependency for another. You never over come it. But then like he said "you 'normals' can't understand us drunks" All I really wanted to say to that was "NO duh, your speech is impared!!" But I fought the urge.

AND I really got SUPER angry when he would correct Philip after I would!!! OHHH!!!! And then constantly get on to him over and over and he actually told him that he was acting like a "brat"!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I wanted to launch an all out war on him!! But I calmly (as I could) told him that we don't call the boys negative names and WE DON'T TELL THEM THAT THEY ARE BAD!!!!!!!!!! What kind of psychological damage did he do to his own kids??? I really don't want mine to doubt thier self worth. The worst that we'll say is that they have really hurt our feelings and that they are acting naughty (naughty being temporary) When you label a child a 'brat' or bad they actually think that they are. Think about it...a long time ago when I was a teenager someone called me 'fat' (I was like 130) Boy was I SO NOT FAT!! but after a while I really thought I was!! And guess what now I really am....is there a connection? (I thought I was so why not really be) Plus for every negative comment you give a child (or even adult) you have to say 100 positive ones to cancel out the negative one. I have a lot of 'good' talk to do. To cancel out the visit. I won't even go there about the 4 letter words that came out of his mouth every 5th word or so.....But mark my words if Philip or Michael says just one........

Yesterday Brent got like 4 hours of sleep and I got 6 but I was the one competely drained and exausted!!! And being the sweet hubby he is he let me take the nap. I wanted to cry I was so tired. It was just so demanding and yes I want a spa break complete with massage and target practice (lol) and then I want a medal!!!!! A big shiny one!!! Because dang it! I did it! And I am the best wife there is!! I endured an excersize where Brent worked nights, the boys and our day to day lives and his father and constant talking and gas!!!! So if any of you want to send me letters of congratulations please feel free!! And if any of you know of a good resort let Brent know!!! :0)

I'm Tired

Well, it's the unoffical kick off of the summer. It's a nice weekend the sun is shining...no rain is in sight...the boys are wanting to play...Brent's Dad is here...more family is coming today...and my husband is asleep because he got home at 5am this morning....And there is the rub.
They are doing an excersize and he trying to be thoughtful volunteered for the night shift. So we could have a vehicle during the day....but again he isn't here but he is here. And the boys are about to drive me crazy...there is something new in the house and they have to test the limits at all times. So that's fun. Rocky is being crazy. And I'm tired. I have to make breakfast and I really don't want to! I just want to go to sleep. With Brent at work at night I don't find sleep as fast as I want to. With all that's happened this week I haven't made it to the gym as much as I wanted. I should really just go and do but there is a parade today along the road the gym is on so I don't even know if I can get to the gym. So well, I'm stuck in another 'discussion' with Brent's Dad that's so much fun you'll hear all about that later!! YEAH!!

Hope all have a better Memorial Day than I will!!

Somewhat of a rant

So unless you have lived under a rock for the past few days you know that a 4 year old girl was 'abducted' from her hotel in Portugal while her parents went out for dinner.....oh, there were 2 Two year olds left with the 4 year old as well.....Can somebody tell me what is wrong with people!!!!????? And why these 'parents' aren't sitting in a Portugeese jail with the 2 left over children in a loving enviroment (family, foster...) Apparently they were with in view of the door but not the other points of exit and she or somebody let her out. Loads of celebrities are offering lots and lots of money for her safe return. Last count 5.1 million pounds (British pounds) And I do pray that she is safe and that she comes out of this. But not back to her parents! When dinner is more important to you than the saftey of your children...I don't care if you are in a hotel and you have the only key. Haven't they ever heard of room service. And most nice resorts offer babysitting services. And now this just turned 4 year old girl could be going thru hell. And still no one is wondering why they left thier children unattended? And why are they allowed to walk the streets with thier other 2 children? People are giving them balloons and presents and flowers and they are smiling....It's nice that they show support but it all seems so wrong to me. She was 3 when she went missing because her parents went to dinner. I just don't get it. I do pray for her and her sibilings. And her parents so they are forgiven for leaving such young children alone.

Also, Brent told me of a news story that he heard on the radio yesterday morning, it didn't make the national news and I'm wondering why....A white couple was out and they were car jacked by 5 black men...The men raped the husband while the wife watched and dismembered various parts of his body and shot him 3 times...the wife got to live for 3 days and I can only imagine what she went thru before they cut off her breasts and died. As far as I know the 5 men are in custody and we don't know if they had children but they were someone's kids too, they had a family. Now.....why didn't this get pasted all over the papers this was just a complete and total act of evil, I doubt that it was a hate crime it was just thoughtless and evil to see what they could do and get away with. 2 People lost thier lives and one of them had to witness it. Competely helpless. Why didn't this appear on Fox News or CNN and get as much coverage as the comment that Don Imus (who was a SHOCK JOCK by the way) made???? They (the team) were effected by that for how long.....and now a family is dead because of hate and evil. It's amazing of what the media considers news worthy isn't it? Why aren't we being warned about these men?? There is all kinds of hate and evil in this world and frankly it scares me everyday that I live. When it's more important to tell the world about a comment made by a SHOCK JOCK towards a mostly black women's basketball team as a joke, yes it was a slur but have you listened to rap lately??? And the 'upset' that one word caused them and for a SHOCK JOCK to lose his job because he was just doing his job than to tell the world about a couple that was brutally murdered by a group of men.... there is something seriously wrong... I pray for that couple and the horrible death they faced. And just pray for the world to wake up and realize what we are doing to eachother.