In a BAD mood!

Really don't know why! I woke up like this! Hurting and sore throat! Not much fun! I'm even crabby! (more than usual!) :0) I know I have things to get done today but I don't want to do them. Brent starts working 12 days straight and the night shift! I know that it's only for 12 days but Mia is coming to town and it just disrupts our lives! He is only a minority of married people in his shop but he 'would get the best training' on the night shift! Well phooey on the 'best training' I want to be selfish and not have my husband sleeping during the day and have to keep the kids quite and not get to do anything as a family with Mia here. All leave would be denied too! I guess I feel mostly bad for Mia she took time off and spent money to come up here!!! And I had to schedule Michael's birthday so Brent could at least be there! I'm not used to my husband not being there, I know I'm one of the lucky military spouses. Brent has been at both births, all Dr appointments, major milestones and birthdays.

I'm just in a bad mood! I feel like I do and do and nothing ever gets done! or it's not appreciated! It may be acknowledged verbally but actually trying to help keep it up is all but lost! So that's when I feel it's not appreciated. I know that this is my job and I try to be the best fly baby I can be but there is a whole wall of clocks, pen sets, plaques, mugs....of how great he is at work out of 100s of people. Well I'm only one and I don't need a mug but it's thankless. I can have it clean and organized and it will look like a tornado hit minutes later! I think if anyone worked for 2 hours on a computer to have the thing turned off and lose everything lost would be a little pissed! That's all! I know that there will be setbacks and that 4 people live here and I'm trying to teach the 2 almost 3 year old to help do things (you can never start to early) But how do you teach an old dog new tricks! You can't not even by example! I think the only way that the military get them to do the things they want them to do is by fear..fear of failure, dissapointment, recycling, or getting kicked out. It created stress, that's not how marriage should be. But it seems to be the only effective way! But I'm not about that. I had a friend that didn't put a tool away and it was bad news he got into a lot of trouble, because it could have hurt others and that wasn't the proper procedure. Well if you don't put your clothes into the hamper it won't kill anybody but it will upset someone. What's the difference?? Well ending someone's life is not the best thing but upsetting your spouse and not trying to help and see that there is a place for things is not that nice either. I guess that there are no demotions in marriage is the saftey net. There is no rank structure in marriage you are equals. But shouldn't there be respect and mutual understanding of things that need to be done to create harmony in the home. I don't have to anwser to anybody if I don't make the bed but it's not as nice. I don't know I just feel blah.... I'll stop now! Is there any one out there that feels the same way???